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Dietician Disappointment… August 28, 2008

Posted by loz121 in Uncategorized.
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As you can see my dietician appointment didn’t go well!! :0( Although my weight is still 8st and a half at the moment, it was disappointing that my dietician felt it’s not good enough for me to drop another day of the feed yet and the possibility of getting rid of my PEG altogether is slipping away. I felt so bad about that that I cried and made a fool out of myself. My dietician told me I still need to try and experiment with different foods and get a more varied diet before they would let me off the PEG. Of course I was proud that I’d kept the weight on and I look better but I feel it’s not my hard work, it’s the result of the PEG giving me all the vitamins that my body needs! I was disappointed that I couldn’t drop off another day off the feed from 3 days to 2 days.
But it’s hard to think that I can change my ways after I’ve spent most of my life eating the same foods that I have done & that I choose foods that I can chew and swallow more easily. I thought I would at least get my PEG taken out next year sometime but it seems that might never happen at the moment…
I’m just feeling a bit sorry for myself at the moment and that I can’t try harder than I already I am, I already have other things to deal with like my OCD and my other hospital stuff, that it’s just making my head explode! I just let it all out in front of the dietician and my mum. I felt a bit stupid about everything but they both reassured me that everything would be fine and I’ve done so well to get to this point. I suppose I am proud I have put the weight on and gone through the entire hospital journey but when will it get to the point where I’m going to be happy to be my relaxed self again and don’t have to have any anxiety attacks. I hope I’ll be ok and I’ll get myself back to tip top shape! Anyway that’s what I hope!! It may be hard to get through it all but I’ll do my best! After all, there are worse things that could happen. I feel very lucky to have my family around me at the moment.
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1. Julie Layne - August 28, 2008

Hi Laura,
I started reading your blog a few weeks ago when I ran across it randomly (from Amanda’s journey, I think?). I’m writing a book with a deaf character, so I was doing some reasearch on cochlear implants aand came across Amanda’s mom’s blog, then yours, it seems.

Anyway, I put you into my blog feeds and read whenever you post.

I’m sorry you had a rough day. I’m glad you have some great, supportive doctors and family who really care for you. I’ll say a little prayer for you today.

Hang in there! I enjoyed your video and sound collage, by the way.

2. Julie Layne - August 28, 2008

Hi Laura,I started reading your blog a few weeks ago when I ran across it randomly (from Amanda’s journey, I think?). I’m writing a book with a deaf character, so I was doing some reasearch on cochlear implants aand came across Amanda’s mom’s blog, then yours, it seems.Anyway, I put you into my blog feeds and read whenever you post. I’m sorry you had a rough day. I’m glad you have some great, supportive doctors and family who really care for you. I’ll say a little prayer for you today.Hang in there! I enjoyed your video and sound collage, by the way.

3. Laura - August 28, 2008

Thank you julie, its nice to know that there are actually some people out there reading my blog ha! Thank you for the support and I hope your ideas for your book are going well!
Laura

4. Laura - August 28, 2008

Thank you julie, its nice to know that there are actually some people out there reading my blog ha! Thank you for the support and I hope your ideas for your book are going well! Laura


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